To my dear girl , remember you used to write diary for me in school . Letting me to read them and i told you about me getting a diary and wrote for you. Dear , here is the dairy . Now i'm passing them to you , read them well . As i know lately you've been very stress about your problems , me , your studies , family issue etc . I want you to know that i'm always by your side still , maybe your vision right now is blur . Give me that trust and come with me . Sadly that your feeling has faded a little for me , i miss our night conversations between each other , maybe we shall communicate more . Please know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE . YOU'RE WITH ME THEREFORE DON'T FEAR , AS I'M AROUND WITH YOU . I hope you do share your problems with me , like how i can be there with you to solve them .
Iloveyou dear <3
Your; idiotstupidpckmybitchybastardboyfeeee ♥
Our dairy , 1st page .
Still remember how we first met ? On 30 june , The day i saw you at cinieleisure and i keep bio you , that moment when i saw you at gong cha till crown pool and we took a photo there together ♥
Soon the next day , i pm you on facebook , taking that photo from you , meanwhile hoping to have nonstop conversation between us and we led on to being together now ♥
♥July
020712 - I texted you , had a short conversation and you told me that you're heading to marina barrage that day . I went late , and it was raining . I reach there about 7+ at night . I reached , and you're drenched . Took pictures , playing with the spray . Still remember i was running towards you , targeting you all the while . That night , you were close to me . After marina barrage , we head to tiong bahru to have our dinner . That night you teared . I comfort you , and send you home after dinner ♥
030712- We texted the whole day . Somehow things changed . From friends become calling each other baby . It started with you ever since we went to marrina barrage ♥ haha ! You told me your problems and i was over protective towards you from people harming you . You requested a chinese song from me .
040712- Remember that night was the night you first called me , and you were at waterfront . I was busy that day and so i didn't went down to find you . That day , you somehow got your leg injured and you caused me worried ♥
050712- I was suppose to be fetching you from school that day and you admitted into hospital and got me really angry , i went to kkh to visit you and i'm was the first to be there . I was so angry that i didn't talk much to you . After a few hours , things got better that day ♥
060712- On that day , was when i was really angry and moodless because of you and your ex . I didn't bother to give a damn to you . I feel that i was just so extra over there and i got really fed up and went home early that day ): You told me that day that you choice me over him , i was shocked because at that moment i have no intention , but maybe yes . Unsure , but was happy when i heard you saying that . Maybe i'm jealous that day ♥
070712- That day , I was suppose to go and find you , but i got something on that day . We chatted on the phone that night . ♥
080712-. That day we went to marina barrage and have our dinner at bugis food court . That day i got angry again because of me hearing some guy coming . That day we were so sweet, i send you all the way to yishun ♥The day when you and your mum quarrel and your mum disowned you . You were upset that day . We were on the phone talking to each other .♥
090712 - The day when we offically got together . The day when you broke up with you ex . The day when i'm working . The day when you wanted to push me away . You quarreled with you mum again , that day . Some how things got better ♥♥♥ That day was the day when we got together , the day where i told myself i must dote you . The day when you'll be under my care and i'll protect you with all i can ♥
100712- That day when i went to fetch after school to go out ♥ I told you a good news that day about us . You were so happy that you almost burst out crying. You were so sweet that day , you wrote a diary for me and waiting for the time to pass because you're looking forward to see me and the time is crawling slowly ♥ I was very tired on that day , due to no sleeping . But i'm happy when you're with me . I meet you at yishun and we went to bugis to meet neelie , claire , eva to have our dinner and went to play pool . That night i got my hand injured because of one guy due to my anger . Well , and we went to Kampong chaichee to sing ♥ That night was lovely with the sone you sang ♥ That cause me to be addicted to it . "下一個天亮"
110712- Met you after school , you rush over to my house to find me that day to have a chat with elysia . Was happy to see you again . You wrote diary for me again , this time round is with drawings ♥ You love fucking cute with uniform that it keep my smile on my face for the whole enitre day. ♥ Poking your cheek the whole day ♥ We went to sengkang and have our dinner . That night your dad almost disowned you . Am so sorry ): I feel bad and guilty that day but things are alright that day .♥
120712- On thursday , we didn't meet . I slept the whole day , and you were calling me in the afternoon but i didn't pick up . sorry baby , wasn't on purpose . We were on the phone the whole night . You seems to be happy that day as i guess things are getting better for you now . ♥ Iloveyou .
130712- On friday . You end school early today . Meet you at woodland . Waiting for you to reach and went for pizza hut with freddy . Today was awesome , together with you . Just simply you, me and freddy . Went to party world . You sang "下一個天亮" again . Awesome♥ . Do you know how you could actually makes me smile by singing that . I told you the favourite sentence of mine , because is somehow seems like us ♥ Baby . i love you . we had a awesome day today , you being so sweet . Taking photos together . Our memories ♥ That night you make a video just for me . With you having flu , being soo sleepy . Baby , i can really see your effort ♥ Thank you so much ♥
140712- On saturday , meet you at cinieleisure . Baby ♥ you know that i love looking at you with your fringe up , you got yourself a new look for me today . Thank you baby ♥
150712- On sunday . We had a long phone chat with you at night , though we didn't meet . Know what ? Just by listening to your voice , i'm fine ♥ That day you're so happy because i told you talked to your shiver ! Finally (: I love seeing you happy around me ♥ Smile more alright ♥
At the same time we had some argument . I'm sorry baby . I just want you to be fine around me.
You know i dote you and very protective over you , i'll never wants anything to happen to you ♥
iloveyou ♥
160712- On monday . You have school ): I woke you up ♥ I want to be the one waking you up for school always. Being the very first voice you hear when you wake up ♥ But you're sick that day . was suppose to meet you , but didn't . Sorry baby . ♥ We argue over the same things again .
I feel so disappointed at that moment . i hope you understand , i'm being controling over you ):
i'm sorry for being harsh on words . I'll never do it anymore . I'm sorry . ♥
170712- On tuesday , I woke you up in the morning again ♥ Baby , you know what ? It's such a blessing of waking you up and having you to hear my voice once you wake up , although i'm not beside you . You ought to be strong alright . I'll be here still ♥ i love you . Meet you on that day afterschool ♥ Had some problem , causing you to worry for me . Baby , i'm fine . Sorry to let you worry for me , i'll be fine , i'll still be here kay ♥ Went to amk and had dinner and you were so happy that day . Baby , finally i see you smiling around me ♥ Keep smiling alright ♥
180712- On wednesday , we chat on the phone , didn't meet. I miss you really much . That day i heard many things , got so worried and a little upset . You telling me you're letting your mum know about me and you . Hoping things will be fine . That night just seems weird . I miss you so much ♥
I'm so afraid , you'll let go of me . will you ? That night i got so breathless that i couldn't sleep at night . Went up to hospital .
190712- On thursday . Sorry baby , got your worried again . Contact you at such a late timing , causing you not going to school for me . I'm sososo sorry . That shows how much you cared for me ♥ Thank you .
209712- Friday . Today . I woke you up in the morning for school ♥ As usual .
meet you at cinieleisure . You were in a bad mood today . I have no idea how to cheer you up .
No idea what's happening in the first place . Until i found out . I'm sorry baby for not being there this time round to be able to listen to you . I'm sorry . I know you're worried, you're afraid . Baby .
Don't be afraid of what's going to happen . I just want you to be happy around me . I know your mum rejected . I hope you still want me by your side , want to be with me still . This relationship is between you and i . As long as you're willing to i will be there for you . I'll walk through this together with you . See , we've walked through all those shits together , and we were so happy . I believe this time round we can also . We can go into a very low profile . I just want to know do you love me . Know what ? when you replied me "i love you " I'm so glad . I want to keep you by my side . I want you to be happy around me . I have no idea how , but baby . We can alright .
Don't think about what happen , don't think about your mum rejected . The problem now is , being happy for these moments . We have no time to waste , lets be as happy as we can . Baby , as long as you're willing to try , i'll stay . I'll be right here walking through all this with you . Right now this video , i've done for you , i know you've seen them .
sooo ...
baby .
are you still willing to hold onto me hand ?
iloveyou♥
I hope you won't be cold shoulder towards me later on . Be happy !!! I'm still around ♥ No worries !
Baby ; I know you've seen that video that've done for you . Here is the dairies i've comeplete for you. Even before we were together . I've type on my computer daily . Wanting to hand it over to you on our 1st month . I want to hand this to you right now . To read them before everything is gone . I cherish every moment of our time being spend together . Be it isit happy or sad . Good or bad . As long as we're near each other , i'm happy . I hope you're also happy being with me . I promised you before i'll be here for you no matter what is going on , i'll be your protection . I know your mum had rejected us being together . I know you still wants to be with me . Baby , i'll promise you , i'll be save and sound . I'll protect you still . I'll be here to walk through this path together with you , if you're willing to . Baby . I love you too .I'm sorry for times when i got so angry easily , for not cherish those time with you . I want you to know .you're not alone . I promise . So , baby . Are you willing to walk through this with me ?
210712- Saturday . Last night , reach home . Get myself busy , by getting you a video made by me and follow by passing you this diaries . Things didn't goes will in the morning , although you told me you're fine . That day , things gets better after talking to you . I'm really sorry for being harsh on my words again . Baby . thank you fo willing to try , willing to be brave around me , it may be tough on you but baby , i want you to know . You're facing it together with me from now on . Infact , you're never alone . Learn to speak to me like how we use to be , whenever you have problems . I can be 2 in 1 . 1 as your boyfriend . 2 as you friend . You can rely on me . Don't be afraid and just trust me . I'll guide you and walk down this journey together with you . Thank you for giving me this chance , for not giving us up that easily . Iloveyou . I've given you my words today , i'll do it for you . For i'll still always gonna be your man , your protection. ♥
220712- Sunday , Didn't meet you today , as you were busy for studies . I understand . ♥
230712- Monday , Had a long chat with you on the phone today , like finally ♥
240712- Tuesday , Stayed at home today , woke you up for school . Baby , i miss you . Meet up soon ♥
250712- Wednesday , Today , i'm being over paranoid . No idea why , but just not saying much . I miss you ♥
260712- Thursday , Did nothing much today , as you usual . Wake you up in the morning for school . I sleep in the day , Chat on the phone at night . Baby , i'm sorry . I don't know have i changed or what to make you feel that i'm talking lesser and lesser to you each day , or maybe because you're too busy this week that , i really have been living in my own world . Sorry . I don't mean to . I'll speak more . ♥
270712-Friday, Today , i wish and hope that we can meet on saturday . Simply woke you up and i guess things get better . Baby , iloveyou ♥
280712- Saturday , finally we meet this week . Today abit screwed . Sorry baby for today . Was in really a rage mood . Sorry for throwing you aside , being alone today . Wasn't on purpose . Very sorry . I love you . Although many things happened today , but today was awesome ♥ I never like quarreling with you , i swear . Can we no quarrel anymore ? I feel that we aren't like before . Hope things are getting better for us tomorrow . I'm really sorry . loveyou .
290712- sunday , didn't meet you today .You're so moody . Baby , i'm sorry about yesterday . Hope things are getting better alright , let bygone be bygone . Cheer up . Things will be better alright . I know you're tired , so do i . But i believe everything will be better . Let's make it works together . I LOVE YOU ! ♥
300712-monday , Today , as usual , had a phone call with you , wake you up for school . Somehow i guess today , things got better ? :)♥
310712- Tuesday , Somehow , today i guess things didn't go well , i guess is because of that day . I don't know what to do . You seems to be so cold towards me today . Is everything alright ? Youre status on facebook , got me curious . I hope you tell me what's going on today , what're thinking . I'm sorry . Maybe is just me , myself . My pride that i refuse to give out to you that day . I'm sorry .
I don't really feel good today , kinda really hurt and upset . Hope eveyrthing got better in days ♥
♥August
010812- Wednesday , Today , woke you up for school , as usual ♥ Somehow , today i have no idea why, but really moodless. Maybe because of yesterday ? You texted me few texted in the morning , i was sleeping , when i woke up . I have no idea of how to reply that texted , because i have no idea would you still treat me as cold , just like yesterday , i choose not to reply for a moment . Until a very moment , i could not take it , but to text you . Reason because , i care still ♥ You're being so sweet today . I'm kind alright today , with a little stress feeling in me . Feeling very low these days , of us being this way . Hot and cold . Sighhhh ~ But i'm glad you're meeting me on thursday . I'm really looking forward . Just you and me ♥
020812- Thursday . today , we texted really little and i know something have been bothering you , and you aren't telling me about it and i know is about us . I'm feeling really stress , of playing mind games with you , trying my best to read you , but i failed . Imissyou . Miss how we used to be .
030812-Friday , today . woke you up for school , you're sick today didn't went to school . I was having plannings in my mind to meet you .But i guess you can't ):
I want you to rest well today . Wanting to meet you tomorrow , but you're meeting your friends . I felt so left out this week . Didn't get to meet you this week , Things got worse . I'm feeling low , feeling of bursting into tears . i have no idea what have been going on between us these days . You've changed ? or me ? or us . I know i'm part of the changes too .
040812-Saturday . Today was really a bad day . Really moodless that i couldn't meet you at all this week . I just wish you could spend atleast a day with me , by meeting me . Giving me some of your time . I'm trying to be understanding as you're schooling from mon - fri . I know i can't meet you , can't fetch you . Therefore i'm looking forward for saturday , and that's my only day to meet you , but . sigh ~ i just miss you . Wanting to meet you . Being so diappointed that , i don't wish to reply you today . Don't know what to say , as i'm feeling really upset . So terrible feeling , Hope you know how i feels . I'm trying to be understanding too . Well , i know you cried today . Went down to cinie , cab down and you're treating me cold , i know i'm partly to be blame for not replying you, therefore i did not say much and just went home in a while , since you've got your friends around .
I'm sorry for not replying you , not that i don't want to , but i'm feeling terrible today to reply . I've no idea what to reply you . Am sorry .
050812- sunday . Today, i texted you in the morning , you didn't reply me even after i woke up . I'm fine with it , maybe is because yesterday . we Texted and finally we had an heart to heart talk between us . Baby , i have no idea you're being so insecure around me because of some people around me . I'm truthful to you , i hope you trust me . I hope after this heart to heart talk , things would be better . I hope we will . Today was alright . Until at night . I have no idea what happened again , but i guess you're upset about me meeting karen i guess ? Baby , trust me . Give me that trust of yours . Am sorry . ♥ iloveyou
060812- monday . Today things seem so much better , i swear . Things are slowly getting better like how we were . Sweeter than few days ago . Texted nonstop , night calls . So much to say between us , laughters nonstop . I miss how we were , and now things are getting back the way how we were . Baby , Cling tight onto me , i'll be here for you . Iloveyou . You're my addiction . ♥
070812-tuesday . Today things got so much better , althought something happened to me today , yet you're still here concern about it ♥ thanks baby .
080812- wednesday , tomorrow will be our 1st month alr , bibi ♥ Was preparing your gift at home today , you were happily singing . Haha , bi . Iloveyou . see you tomorrow ♥
090812- thursday . Finally today was the day , i've been looking forward to , not because it's national day , but because is a special day between me and you ♥ Our first monthsary , my dear .
Hope you enjoyed your day today ♥ May we count down to the next month , 3rd , 4th and more to go ♥
2nd page of dairy ♥
100812- friday . today , we met again . For some meetings . ♥ Goodnight bibi , love you ♥
110812- saturday - bibi , no worries . No fear alright . I'm here for you . Got so worried for you .so sorry . ♥ Bibi , be strong kay .
120812- sunday . Today , went to mee you to get the thing back from you . Hope things got better for you from now on . Bi , do i know that i'll be here to protect you ♥ no fear kays . Sorry for today , had no time for you ,was working , so many things happen today . Bi . i'm still around for you okay .
So sorry , couldn't talk to you too long cause my phone die on me ): I'm so worried for you . I'm here kay ♥
130812- Monday - You seems to be better today ♥ Finally . bibi . Got chase out of house today over the thing . But things are now settled , no worries dear ♥ Love you . With me around , nothing is impossible kay ♥
140812- Tuesday . Baby , sorry that i couldn't call you today , i don't mean to . Got locked up today . Have a good slepe kay . Hope you're doing fine tonight . No fear , i'm with you , in your heart . Although you can't hear my voice♥ Dear , loveyou ♥
150812- Wednesday . baby , please takecare of your health kay . Recover soon , how i hope you're staying with me , so that i could take care of you myself ♥
160812- thursday . meet up today over your issue . Glad that things goes well ♥
170812- friday - baby , iloveyou kay . ♥
180812- saturday , Today , chalet . Enjoyed cause you're around . Sorry for leaving you alone and spending my time with others today . Sorry to neglect you . I don't mean to , my dear . iloveyou ♥
190812- sunday .today had some quarrel with you . I hate quarreling with you . But somehow these day , there's so many conflicts between us , i guess we should talk things out soon . I'm being angry not because you drink , but because someone said you drinking barcardi etc . Bi , i angry cause i care . How can i take it as a joke ? Was trying to get things right for us today . Somehow things doesn't goes well .
200812- monday . quarrels again . I hope you could just understand me sometimes . I speak what i gotta say , so that you know . But not pointing faults at you . Don't feel good today . Put down my pride . I will never put down my pride for anyone. I hope you can be like before . I'm not the only one that changed . You're no longer like before either of how clingy you are to me , of how much you care . I don't like of how you vent anger on me sometimes . I hope you understand , i do not send you long text as often as before , doesn't mean my feelings fade or no longer love you , i still do . Just that , i don't get reply at all , and i don't see a point of texting . After all , please note that i do love you still. ♥
210812 - Tuesday , hope things goes well for us from now on ♥
220812- wednesday . got into another case today . Met at sengkang . Nothing much happens . We seems much better too ♥ I love how we are now ♥
230812- thursday . Why are you so cute hur ? bibi ♥ teehe ! How i wish i could hug you to sleep everyday ♥ My silly girl .
240812- friday , went down to cinielesure today to meet elysia they all and head down to V5 . I got a hangover ): Tearing badly , images of me and you quarrelings days before . Sorry dear . Iloveyou ♥
250812- saturday ,so sian today . didn't went out , neither did you also . Had some talks on the phone with you ♥ satasfied , because i have you for the day ♥
260812- sunday , today . as usual . stayed at home , chat on phone with you. While preparing things for our 2nd monthsary's present for you . <3
270812- monday . as usual , woke you up for school today . Head to hq to report and end up pospone . Hoping things will go smoothly and well for me though . So tired , busy with things today . Dear , ilove you . <3
280812- Tuesday , woke you up for school <3 Bibi , i sold my dslr today for your present . I just want you to know , you're mind right now . Knowing that you once told me of how jealous you are of how i treated samantha and alandrea when i'm jio-ing them . Now that i want to tell you , you're worthy to me . Hope you like this poloriod i've bought for you , bet you'll be very happy . loveyou , silly <3
290812 - wednesday . things seems so much better for us each day , hoping things will remain this way <3
300812- Thursday . Bibi , phone calls daily from you , i'm satisfied . Although we don't get to meet often , but atleat i get to hear your voice everyday <3
3108012- Friday , today meet you for your problems. Do you know how much i really hope we could meet often , individually sometimes , but still i understand . iloveyoudear <3
♥September
010912- saturday . Today , you called and ask me to meet you and your mum . Was so shocked . Feeling fine . You're mum is awesome . Was really happy and somehow a little things in my mind too. Now that i've got the permission to , i hope i can fetch you from school , home , meeting you more often . I don't know why , i just seems like you don't really like meeting me alone . I just hope we can . Your mum asked me to stayed over for the night . Was happy because your mum didn't reject us being together from the start , as what she told me . bibi , i'll be here for you always . Now that we don't have to be together secrectly , but openly . iloveyou <3
020912 - Sunday , today . You were so sweet today , wishing me happy birthday , being the first to wish . and calling me at 12 sharp just to wish me . I thought you don't bother to , sorry to doubt you . Thanks sweetie <3 i love you .
030912- monday . Today is my birthday . Somehow i wish i could meet you out to celebrate , but instead we didn't . I really feel upset about it , not to say . But really down that you aren't here with me to celebrate . But was touched and it's so sweet of you to complete that video for me . Thanks dear <3 Thanks for spending the whole day just to get it done for me <3
040912- tuesday . Today , as usual . Chat on phone <3 bibi , 5 more days to our 2nd monthsary <3 i hope it goes on smoothly than last month <3
050912- wednesday . Chat on phone again . Bi , i hope we can really meet each other soon <3
060912- Thursday . Sorry dear today for being unable to call you in the night to chat till you fall asleep . So sorry , went down to powerhosue , but still my heart and soul is totally with you . Text you the whole day , not wanting you to feel insecure without me . Wanting you to know i'm around , though i can't call . Make the effort to call you after coming out from powerhosue , knowing that you can't sleep . Telling me you feel lonely today , missing me terribly . So sorry dear . Wasn't on purpose to do so . Sorry . Iloveyou dear <3 Thanks for being understanding and allow me to go too <3 mucksss <3 (:
070912- friday . Tomorrow is my chalet alr <3 Going to see you soon . 2 more days to our monthsary . Just can't wait to meet you to pass you your present <3 teehee ^^ <3
080912- saturday , today chalet .I cried badly . So much things being kept within me , not letting you know . I'm sorry dear for not sharing my problems with you at all . Not that i choose not to trust you or so . I don't wish you to be worried over my things , as i feel you're sitll young to understand them too . Sorry dear , i know i should have told you my problems . Shouldn't be hugging jeslin first . Sorry for not letting you be the first to know . But still bibi , was so happy when you saw the poloriod . I'm happy because you're . I want to see you happy when you're with me always . I want to give my best to you . Iloveyou <3
090912- Sunday , today is our 2nd monthsary and we quarrelled over last night matter at chalet. Was so moodles. Thinking back of how i treated you last night of how things goes on and the problems i'm facing . Just so stress . Dear , so sorry . Thanks for everything , busy for my chalet , helping me to order for the food , cleaning up , bbq-ing . Not having enough time for you to enjoy , not sleeping for yesterday and got sick . So sorry . Thanks for helping out so much for my chalet , and yet i neglected you for my friends yesterday night . I'm so sorry . Sorry for not talking much to you today , just so upset , stress about certain things . Having so many doubts in my mind , asking myself isit true etc . that you're leaving end of this year etc. Cause dear , it's really such a terrible nightmare and phobia of mine , that i've gone through it 3 years back before i'm a butch , when i was with a guy. got myself into deep depression , having medication to help me , drinking everyday . It's such a torture , i just hope you won't be the next . Not wanting it's history to repeat again . Asking myself why at times , i want to meet you , i just couldn't . But only i could meet you as a group . I just hope you know and understand. I didn't told you about it because i don't wish you to worried about me , wanting you to go forward for what you've been wanting to .
I really really love you <3
3rd page of dairy ♥
100912- monday . Today booked out . As you didn't go school today because you're sick . Was upset and disappointed today that you didn't inform me that you're going out , meeting whoever etc . That i've check your facebook to know . Bi , i don't know why . I just feel you changed . Before we were together , we would actually meet . You'll actually ask to meet me , happy that i'll be going to your school to fetch you etc . Still remember ktv session with freddy , that day ? at partyworld . Was the best moment of all . I love how you cling onto me that day . Just so lovely . I miss those moment . Bi , i hope we could be like before , of how you would actually reply my message often , not like now that i gotta spam message and wait for your reply . Each time i gotta wait for your reply i feel so disappointed . Had so much problems today . So upset that i cried badly , same do you . Having problems , not letting me know at the beginning . That i've gotta talk to yueting and she gotta talk to you about it etc . I feel so tired today . Just so so tired . I understand how you're feeling too .I've been through . No matter how stress i am , what situation i am , how upset or disappointed i am , still i'll be here for you , give you my strength to be strong , because who ask you to be my favorite girl that i dote the most , that i love . Bi , i will be here for you . You aren't alone and i aren't gonna let you face all these alone . Iloveyou . Really do .
110912- tuesday. Today , woke you up , hesitated if i should because you asked me not to . You didn't go school today , didn't contact the whole day till night time . That i broke down and cried again . These days are just so difficult for me to get through . I miss how we used to be , even before we were together . Baby , i know you're stress about your studies , being understanding that you'll be busy and kinda stress. Somehow i feel that you're ignoring me the whole day today . Don't know what went wrong , what's happening . Just so disappointed that i've gotta wait for your reply for hours , and not even a single reply too , since yesterday . Tweet on twitter to rant , not wanting to add anymore burdern or anymore stress for you , but you saw . Bibi , don't take it to heart , i'll be fine . You asked me to leave today , i didn't want to , same to you . After all , i believe all this will be over and things will get better for us in times . After your exam , i believe things will be even better for us . I just gotta bare with this 2-3 weeks time . Thanks for the long goodnight message . Loveyou <3 I miss our night coversations .
120912- wednesday . You asked me not to wake you up yesterday night , but still i did . Because i'm doing my part as a boyfriend , when you're i don't wish you to be alone . I'm fine being by your side with you ranting out onto me etc. Didn't talk much today . Things just seems to changed , i just hope things get better as we go on . I'm sorry . Cried the whole night again and just out of sudden i was thinking of leaving the house for a few days . I just feel the heartache in me. Just so much to bare with , because afterall you're my love, the one i dote most .
130912- thursday. Woke you up again . Things seems to be so much better i guess? Thanks baby, been so sorry , thinking back about the things . Been crying this week over you . I went out of house today , went to sentosa to be alone . Just maybe , i need some time to be alone . I'm sorry .
You've been sick for days , please take good care of yourself my dear . Somehow i hope you're staying with me , so that i can take care of you . Sadly you aren't . Finally you called me tonight . I miss you voice badly . Thanks dear <3
140912-friday Although i'm not home , i still remember to wake you up at 6am sharp for your school <3 You're sick still . Poor girl of mine . Came home today night . Talk on phone , texts . I guess things are getting much better for us . I hope same for you ? Rushing your homework early in the morning . I miss that voice of you . Can we go back to the late night conversations like we used to ?
sleep early girl , goodnight . Love you <3
150912- saturday . I thought today was friday , wanting to wake you up . I miss you badly uh ): what about you ? do you ? Well , just know that today was saturday . Was thinking if i could meet you today , but you didn't contact me the whole day , mood just seems to be so down again . You told me that you've a little feeling fade for me , is it because we hardly meet ? Especially this week , that you're so busy over your exams . I hope after your exams things will get better . Miss you so badly this days . Really . Loveyou my dear <3
160912- sunday You wake up quite late today , i guess you're tired . Have a short night conversations on the call for like 30 mins only . I don't know what went wrong these days, probably you're stress about you problems , unsure of how to face them , but i hope you tell me what's going on etc . I'll be there for you .
