My love

My new lappy background.

Full of my baby's face. 

Been through alot of problems lately ,

quarrels , broken up , conflicts .

But i never once stop loving nor show .

 I may failed to love at times , but i want you to know , you're always gonna be the one .

The one i will use my life to protect  from all harms.  

The one that i will love with all my might , being who i am is what i what .

Sorry baby , if lately i' failed to be observant towards you .

Please know , i love you .  

it's been 2 months plus already . 

Never will i want you to leave . baby . 

Baby ,

Today is our first month of us being together.
Baby , you literally touched my heart , you love melt my heart . Teared with joys , with you in my mind . From the first day till now , always . You've been the one that can do so . Do you know that having you is such a bless . I love having you here , there's never once i would want to be apart from you , because you're the only one that can bring happiness into my life , with you i feel my world . Of you , i want to be a better person for you . At time i feel that i'm such a lousy person , because sometimes i just
feel that , i can't do anything for you at times. 
I want to find my faith , strengthen my confidences for you .
To be a real man of yours , by your side .

I can't find a right words, or even a paragraph of message for you . So i'll sum it up . I LOVE YOU .

Theres never once I wanna be apart from you . Even for a second. I love having you around with me ♡

 Gifts from me to my baby <3

 Love letter wrote from baby <3

Past .

 Everyone do have a past that they never want to remember , to recall . So much so that we can delete that moment of time so that we we can feel so much better in life . This past of mine , been such a nightmare to me . I still remember of how i get through these shits . How stupid i was in the past . 

At times , i thought i could just hide this for the rest of my life and i won't let it out in any way . 

I could start everything afresh , not thinking about it . Until today , i'm still facing it , while all the times 

all i wish is to run away from it . There's no way i could face all these . Time flies , it's 2013 now . 6 years . Well , just some speech that i couldn't describe in any words. Just hatred . Sometimes i just wish i could end everything in my life , stop this life of mine , but am i being too selfish to people around me too ? 

I don't understand , i'm living for myself . Why can't , for once . I put myself infront of the rest first .

Well , maybe that's who i am , and therefore i'm always being played , cheated , taken for granted . All sort of things.  I'm slowly getting used to it , my heart has slowly became numb too . 

这条路走一半 突然累得失去方向 时间有点晚 谁和我一样孤单

经过 太多思念 心的缺 空的夜 我却无力改变 我应该怎么办 怎么勇敢 怎么说无所谓 

Loving someone is a leap of faith , whereas being love is such a blessing . 

It's been long , since i've been loved by someone . As much as her . 

Such happiness , such smiles are rare . It happens once in a life time to me .

I'm gonna treasure her well , she's my precious of all right now. 

I'm so thankful for having her in my life . 

So touched by her this morning , didn't sleep much and went to fairprice just to get ingredients

to cooked for me . Thanks dear <3 touched and appreciated much by you . Iloveyou <3

Speaks my mind .

All these shall speaks my mind . 

I have no fear of the world when I am with you, and you understand me completely. You love my crazy ways. Love me for what I am. I love you for accepting me how I am and being with me despite my weaknesses.

I'm just holding on tight...

I've got someone who loves me more then words can say

And I'm thankful for that each and every day

And if I count all my blessings, I get a smile on my face

Still it's hard to find faith..

But if you can look in my eyes

And tell me we'll be alright

If you promise never to leave You just might make me believe

But lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough.

I promise to stay if you promise to never leave.
I'm afraid that you'll get bored of me one day .
Yes, I'm afraid of commitment. I'm afraid of getting too attached to someone. I'm afraid of loving someone too deep, that eventual heartbreak is inevitable.

That's all for today i guess, i shall sleep early tonight . 

Night peeps. 

kthxbye :)

Goodnight lovelies. 

It's been 2 months plus i've not blogged.  My lappy broke down . Couldn't update any stuffs.

Yesterday my dad bought me a new toy <3 Thanks daddy for the macbook pro . Awesome <3

Oh well , this pass two months , many things happened.  Being happy , upset , hurt deeply etc . 

but today I'm able to stand up on my feet , to be who i am again . Is all because of my wonderwomen <3 

010113 : 0101 <3 

This wonderwomen of mine , her love for me is great . 

She protected me , being with me all the while .

She have been there for me all this while , so much so that 

all these happiness that i'm having right now is she the one who gave it to me .

She left my life with such a big impact . 

Thank so much for being part of my life all these while . 

You'll be my wonderwomen , i'll be your superman .

Being there for you as much as you do for me . 

Been missing so much lately, falling for you way much deeper .

I'm afraid of some certain things at times. 

Baby , know what . I love you so much . 

So much that i don't know what to say .

Only my actions prove them all . 

I'm not good with words . 

But i can only say it by saying " I love you " 

I want to fight for you , with all i can . 

Using this time to get things right between us . 

I don't know how long can we last , but as long as you're not letting me go ,

I'm never gonna give up on us too . 

I want to give you the best of myself to you . 

Giving you all i can , to make you feel happy with me around you. 

i want to be able to be the one , always , who brighten up your day daily .

To be the one who understand you.

lastly , TO BE YOUR MAN ! 

 Thanks for all those things you have done for me in live . 

Appreciate it so much , and i really do . 

To many "thanks" to say to you .

I want you here with me , to the fullest <3 

 ILOVEYOU : your man <3 


I don’t have words to describe what I feel for you. I fall deeper in your love with every passing day. Every moment I spend with you, feels like a dream. I’m madly in love with you.

To you , the one that i love .

Dear you , please spare me some of your time by looking through this . All this effort i've done for you .

Spare me sometimes by reading my post for you.  thanks . 

Up till today , i've still continue writing diary for you , even after we've broke up .. 

Continue .....

160912- sunday You wake up quite late today , i guess you're tired . Have a short night conversations on the call for like 30 mins only . I don't know what went wrong these days, probably you're stress about you problems , unsure of how to face them , but i hope you tell me what's going on etc . I'll be there for you . 

170912- monday . Today , something cock up again . We almost broke up . Was terrible upset and at the same time i feel so relive that you actually told me how you feel . I trust you . I really do . Bi thanks for giving us a second chance . Iloveyou . i really do .

180912- tuesday , today , we texted . No calls . But it seems like things for us are getting better . I hope it does . i do really love you dear .

190812- wednesday , Today , we texted . It's kinda cute of you wanting to snatch the breathing kit with me . So silly and cute . Love you dear <3

200912 - thursday . Was telling you about me thinking back of we came close , how we first met , first talk . Everything was so cute . I miss those moments, i wonder what have happened between us this days , i hope things will get better or maybe i'm the one that changed . Sorry dear for letting you suffer around me . bi , i really love you alot . you know what . You sounds so cute when you're just awake , i love those moment . So cute of you . Mucks .

210912- friday . Sorry dear , cause you worry for me for me not sleeping the whole day . Was at court , hope you understand . thanks for your little concern for me . <3

220912- saturday . Today  is saturday , haven't been meeting you these days . I miss you . Wonder how are you . Dear , i love you . I really hope you know .

230912- Today , sunday . i miss you so badly . Things have changed so much . What can i do to get it better ? I miss you . 

240912-monday . We seems to have drift , but i believe your heart is still with me . I do love you still , as always . please know . 

250912- tuesday . I've changed , you've changed . I've no idea what's went wrong . I'm trying to figure out my mistakes. Im sorry . I know somehow somewhere went wrong again . We have not been meeting for so long ): 

260912- wednesday . It's been days since i last heard your voice . You're having exams , busy . That i know . I understand . Still i want you to know , i'm always here as usual . <3 

270912-thursday . Had a hard time reaching out for you today , busy i guess ? I hope to meet you soon . 

280912-friday . Today , we had a big quarrel and we've broke up . I finally know what went wrong . I can't bare to lost you , i really love you still , i hope you won't give up on me still . I'm gonna change for you . Please wait for me . im sorry .

290912-saturday , today . I woke up feeling so different , without you . Without anything , i feel so lost . Struggling through today , thinking of you . Teared so badly , couldn't get to sleep . I miss you . Do you ?

300912- sunday . Didn't sleep and eat yesterday , you're running in my mind . What can i do to have you back ? Do you miss me ?

011012- monday . Today is october ? 8 more days to our "3rd month " i've lost you . You've disactivated your facebook . Am i the reason ? how are you today ? I've tear and not been eating well , without you . I'm thinking of you , solving out of what can i do to have you back , what to change . Please wait for me , i'll change and be a better person for you . don't give up on me .

021012- tuesday . today As usual , didn't sleep much . less than 3 hours , i'm awake . Wake up in the morning to find samantha they all . I'm not feeling any better , findind ways to get myself busy , to stop myself from tear , eventually teared on bus today . Thinking of you . I really love you . I;m sorry .

031012- wendesday . Although we contact back as friend , i believe both you and i are having this feeling more than friends in us . I don't know what to do , so lost . Getting myself busy , so that i won't have any time that i'll think of you . Still every moment you're in my mind . 

041012- thursday . I just feel like talking to you all day today , but i know i don't get the chance . I miss you voice so much . do you think about me now and then? The thoughts of you, all i can describe is love and no other words .I want you to be happy. But I want to be the reason.I hate missing someone and not being able to do anything about it. I'm sorry that i've hurt you . I've decided to change , i will . Give me some times . I love you , i'll proof .

051012- friday . I miss you so much and i don't know what to say , I want to go back to our first conversation. Im not okay without you here with me . I miss you .

061012- saturday . I wish you would text me sometimes. 3 more days to our "3 month" I'm tearing everyday over you and fighting this war to change myself and everything around me so that we can get back to how we were and peaceful days between you and me . Don't give up yet will you ? wait for me .

071012- sunday . I wish i can meet you , even now we are talking as a friend . I wish you would text me sometimes. I miss you so much , especially when it's night time , tears run down my face . Thinking of you . 

081012- monday . miss you so terribly . want you back so badly . Do you too ? I know im still somewhere in your heart . Your trust for me is all i need . I'm changing for you this time round , please trust me . Tomorrow is our "3month" I lost it all . Didn't want to go back home today , cry to myself . Looking at our videos . I'm so sorry for hurting you . I really missed joking around and talking to you. I just wanna stay by your side . Allow me to , will you ? 难道连爱你的资格都没有了吗?

091012- tuesday - today i our 3rd month .Cried all to myelf , locking myself up at home . So many things in my mind . 难道连爱你的资格都没有了吗? I wonder do you miss me . I hope you see my efforts and heart this time . My changes in everything around me . I'm willing to go against everything for you . I love you .

101012- wednesday - Whatever happens, good or bad, you're the first person I want to tell everything to.Sorry to fail to protect you from suffering . I will never repeat this mistake anymore .So sorry that i've hurt you . I just want to be a better person for you, to trust me , to be back to me now.Please don't fall for someone else.I long for you every day and every night. ):

111012- thursday - Was so disappointed , but i can't say much . Because i've disappoint you too . The feeling of being backstab . But still i trust you , because i understand what is going on . I really trust you still . I love you , i trust you . It's alright , i'm not angry . I'm fine . It's my karma for treating you that way . 

121012- friday - I want us back but there's no way out if im the only one solving .i need you to trust me that i'm changing. I hope you understand all my doings . I can chose to have nothing but not without you . I want you back . I've realise my mistakes , im in the process of changing . Will you give me a chance again ? 

131012- saturday -  I would rather lose everything than to lost you , i hope you can see what i'm doing for you now . I love you still , i know you're fear of things repeating itself . Trust me will you ? I need a little trust , a little faith , a little support from you . Please believe me .

141012- sunday - All i need is a chance from you. Never will i break it anymore . Can we ? Throughout all this while of what im doing is just to have you back here with me . I can leave the world and not you.Waiting for your return .Isit that you don't understand my doing or you can't see what im doing .Not that im not staying . Im always here .给我最后一次机会，换我忍耐，换我等待Remember of how we get close ? What have got us into this way, was all the mistakes i've done . Now that i want you back so badly .I don't want to give up. I don't want to end it just this way. It's not over yet .I still care , what about you ?你要的我做了，你要我改的我都改了，不喜欢的我也把他们推开了。还有什么你要我做的？ 改给的我也给了。难道我没资格要你回的权利都没有了吗?为了你我什么都可以不要.你知道吗， 我多希望你能回到我的身边 .If losing everything around me can get you back . I will .I just want to have a place in your heart like you have a place in mine. I miss you so badly . Can we start everything afresh ?

Continue ......

Wanted to meet you , pass you personally . I know you won't wanna meet me . so i'll blog here ..

Mylittlesweetiessweeterthanwhatsoevergirlfeeee’s Dos’ and Donts’

INFO

·         Vivian Lim 

·         DOB – 18.06.1999.

·         Mobile : -

·         Home : -

·         Address : LFD 

LOVES / LIKES

·         She LOVES Doraemon.

·         She likes people who sing. Learn it well.

·         Chocolates, number one favourites. Only WHITE CHOCHALATES!

·         She loves long sweet messages; don’t ever find it a bother to do so!

·         Cakes, all-time favourite.

·         Pepsi, Drink of the day.

·         She like to have midnight calls, usually, she’ll fall asleep during the conversation. (‘:

·         She prefer watching HongKong horror movies, *not so scary types*

·         She LOVES shopping.

·         Usually shops for leopard print items and bags.

·         Blog-shopper, always.

·         Oyster Omelette, WITHOUT THE OYSTERS PLEASE.

·         Love baking cakes.

·         Loves CAM WHORING!

·         Loves being pampered.

·         Always a princess.

·         Can’t get to sleep without lullabies at times.

·         Loves being care and concern, give her all your attention.

·         Loves sleeping!

·         Always showing the *iwannaeatsometoo!please~~~~~* face when you’re holding the favourites, example, Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Ice Cream.

·         Likes BBQ prawns and crab sticks.

·         LOVES cheese. Super a lot when it comes to pizza. O.O

·         SIBEI AIMEI, mask Mask MASK~!

·         Song list ; Beautiful in white,  Hai Shi Yao Xing Fu, Wo Ke Yi, Sa Jiao, Want You Back.

·         Loves making cover for songs.

·         She loves playing pool, but she’s not good in it, therefore, doesn’t play much.

DISLIKES

·         She hates impulsiveness.

·         She dislikes being touched *youknowwhere*.

·         100% NO to SEX.

·         Hates hot tempered people. Especially being her boyfriend. I failed to do so, I’m changing. Do it, if I fail.

·         Hates fighting among her friends.

·         Hates roaches, bugs, anything that flies!

·         Totally turnoff by ahbengs and ahlians.

·         Hates SHELL-Y food.

·         Doesn’t take in spicy food.

·         Hates being taken for granted.

·         Hates family quarrel, fights. Turn her mood upside down.

·         Hates being beat up by her brother.

·         Hates cats.

·         Hates being blogged, Facebooked or tweeted about relationship quarrels.

·         Dislike hardcore drinkers.

·         Dislike hardcore smokers.

·         Dislike clubbers who grinds.

·         Dislike going school.

·         Dislike not having freedom.

·         Dislike being alone.

·         Dislikes finding faults with friends.

·         Dislikes people finding faults with her family.

·         Dislike people who insults HER Doraemon.

·         Hates not being replied.

·         Hates being KUP on phone, *27times* ): sorry.

·         Dislike being money on.

·         What’s happening in the relationship remains among 2 of *us*, no others should be involved. I’ve changed and learn what you meant.

·         Hates being places that are freezing cold.

·         Hates people playing games or doing something else while talking to her on the phone.

·         Hates being betrayed.

·         Hates people who boast around.

·         Hates having pimple when the next day, there’d outing.

·         Hates going out without make-ups. Bare faces.

·         Hates dark chocolates.

·         Hates people who take in drugs.

·         Hates not being able to be there for friends.

·         History

·         She was once mine, I hope she’ll be back one day.

·         I love her for who she is, not who I want her to be. I’ve changed and never will I ask her to change for the sake of me. ILOVEYOU<3 Mylittlesweetiessweeterthanwhatsoevergirlfeeee!

Hope you see this video , i've done for you .

Remember the first time we met ? At cinie , crown pool . I was tell you " why so zi lian " :P

That night , you gave me the hug that i never thought that you would gave . The day after , i went to find you

at marina barrage . Was such a wonderful day , having fun . Despite you being upset that day , I was all the while being there beside you . comforting , stand by you . Up till today i would still , Always . Followed by texts , night calls everyday and eventually together. You admit into hospital , i visit you everyday , by your side. You feeding me with your meal . Being so sweet , those moment . Though that day we have quarrel a little , you being paranoid because of me used to like "her" . But now i want you to know . From the start , you're the one i want to be with , till today . Ever since i met you at cinie crown pool . We've been through so much , so many memories . Party world , pizzahut , national day count down , fireworks , 1 & 2nd month . Though we quarrel , i still wanna say that i love you still . I care for you more than any others do , i still love you up till today . We've broke up , and i want you back with me still , i've changed for you . I'll change and be a better person for you too . i know i've made a mistakes . i've made you suffer . 

Sorry for letting you being disappointed and lost trust in me . I'm sorry for hurting you , i know apology means nothing .

Still , i've change , still in a process of changing for you .I hope you'll trust me once again .Seeing these changes i've done for you . 

Pushing away everyone , because i want just a simple world between you and me of how we used to .

I may not be the best , but i still hope we can get back together .

"we will , we can" *remember ?

I used to show you attitude when im moody , 

i might be paranoid sometimes ,

some times i neglected you .

But still , i want you to know , my heart is still with you all the while .

No matter how far we are now , our heart still combine as one although now that we are apart .

I hope i can be the reason behind your smile once again .

You're truly my only one all the while .

i remember a sentence in your video that you've done for me 

" i ain't pushing you away easily anymore , cause i know what you want , is to be by my side .

I let you be , i let you stay . I want to be able to see you smile when you're with me . cause no matter  

how many disagreement we have , we would still be together " 

Yes .  No matter how many disagreements we have , we would still be together .

I wish that you would come back through my door . Can we start everything over again ? Get it back of how it was . Give me a chance  . A Final chance from you .

I promise that i'll cherish this chance well ,

I will not break it again .I want you back with me once again .

Remember the video below ? 

The one that we've done for each other ? 

( Me to you )

( yours ; to me )

Come back , will you ? :/


sincerely me .