Past .

 Everyone do have a past that they never want to remember , to recall . So much so that we can delete that moment of time so that we we can feel so much better in life . This past of mine , been such a nightmare to me . I still remember of how i get through these shits . How stupid i was in the past . 

At times , i thought i could just hide this for the rest of my life and i won't let it out in any way . 

I could start everything afresh , not thinking about it . Until today , i'm still facing it , while all the times 

all i wish is to run away from it . There's no way i could face all these . Time flies , it's 2013 now . 6 years . Well , just some speech that i couldn't describe in any words. Just hatred . Sometimes i just wish i could end everything in my life , stop this life of mine , but am i being too selfish to people around me too ? 

I don't understand , i'm living for myself . Why can't , for once . I put myself infront of the rest first .

Well , maybe that's who i am , and therefore i'm always being played , cheated , taken for granted . All sort of things.  I'm slowly getting used to it , my heart has slowly became numb too . 

这条路走一半 突然累得失去方向 时间有点晚 谁和我一样孤单

经过 太多思念 心的缺 空的夜 我却无力改变 我应该怎么办 怎么勇敢 怎么说无所谓